one. [Thursday Oct 24th, 7:27pm] Friends only, maybe? I say comment until I figure out what's going on. 35 +

[Sunday Oct 12th, 11:20pm] I am out of my fucking mind and my actions, thoughts, and feelings are completely irrational in every way. However, I started exercising and am going to my first yoga class tomorrow so hopefully my absolute inability to contain my mind into some acceptable form will be overcome by ... deep breathing techniques, or whatever. 1 +

[Thursday Oct 9th, 12:09am] I have been sort of upset lately at my lack of social life, and how few people I have in my small circle of friends that I spend time with (either in or out of work). And today, over lunch with an old friend, I got into a pretty passionate explanation over why I am not-really-such-great-friends with some people, anymore ... and realized (finally) that I am alright with the people I spend time with, and the people I chose not to be around. Because, as much as it's nice to have an amount of people to have fun with, it's also nice to not be used by them. In addition, it's also nice to not feel like I have to hold myself back for them, or feel like I'm constantly being lied to, or feel like I have to pretend failure after failure of overall character with mostly no expenditure of any sort of effort on their part to reduce (at least the severity of) these failures is acceptable to me. When it's not; when I'd rather just spend time with people I have nerding it the hell up with my in my science classes, or on my councils, or at work. Quality over quantity, if you will. Like J and I talked about, it's nice to be "palling around" with people who have respect for themselves for at least a few hours of the day ... and not respect that they fashion out of a psychedelic mushroom trip, or delusional misrepresentation of the past, or outright denial of overall personal attributes. I also hate phonies. Signed, Sarah Caulfield (Oh yeah, next semester I'm going to take a creative writing class, and I'm also getting pretty annoyed with the media's portrayal of McCain [although I'm not planning on voting for him, I don't think many of the attacks are fair on his part ((not even Obama's attacks on him, I'm sayin' the media, especially involving the debates)) and I really wish there were such a MFin' bias in journalism; it's sickening really].) 2 +

Okay, so liiiike [Tuesday Oct 7th, 12:29am] my first Organic Chemistry test was today, and I studied a lot for it ... I mean, a lot. To the point where I could have done more, still, but I still studied A LOT. I gota 46 on it. Here's the great part. You ready? This was over five chapters, you see. (I'm still not at the good part.) The class is full of MAN I GOT THIS, I KNOW THIS SHIT, I'M DOMINATING THE F OUT OF THIS TEST a-holes. Yeah okay so uh. Class average was a 37. Honestly. I know he grades on a bell curve, or a modified one or WHATEVER, but ... 37?! My pathetic 46 was almost 10 points above the class average. That's. Ridiculous. So anyway, my deal is, now I don't know if I'm going to need to drop it or not. And, either way, I've already decided that even if I need to, I'm still not going to, because by magic luck I might get a C (and if by not magic luck, well, at least I'll know what's coming to ruin my life next semester when I have to do grade forgiveness). That was my day. 2 +

[Thursday Oct 2nd, 10:04pm] What I wouldn't give for a Republican in the national spotlight to be able to pronounce nuclear correctly. 1 +

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